My Magic baby

For me, I love and believe in universal signs and alignment showing up when things are right. I believe in trusting our intuition and that God/the universe wouldn't give me this baby, AND my gift of yoga retreats, and not give me a way to do them both.

When I got pregnant it was wild how life began to fall into place immediately.

I have so much to say on this I don't know where to begin... and it definitely won't all fit on one IG post, so bear with me over the next few days.

I found out early early, for someone who is not trying to get pregnant. It was barely 4 weeks.

I was in yoga (duh) and felt weird in my body. My balance was off. My body felt different all around and to me it even LOOKED different already. It was very subtle and to anyone else they wouldn't have noticed.

Then it was a bit of a whirlwind for the next few days of pregnancy tests, disbelief, more pregnancy tests, doctors appointments, and lots of WTF is going on.

It was a Wednesday evening when we found out.

I had a private retreat planned in 2021 for the WEEKEND I WAS NOW DUE and the yogi in charge called me on Thursday, the day after we found out, out of the blue, and asked to push the retreat back to 2022.... WILD.

I had a girls trip planned for Friday, two days later... This trip was necessary. It is funny because I planned it on the Monday of that same week; a super last minute trip AND I rarely do girls trips like this. I just felt like I needed it.

Mine and Johns heads were spinning and to be honest, this space was so beneficial for us, especially for me, to process it all.

I also went on this girls trip with two friends that were newer friends since moving here and they were the MOST supportive, space holding, and uplifting ladies. I am SO grateful. And so many impactful moments happened on this weekend.
Two days after I found out I was pregnant, we stayed in this neat little hostel in Leadville, CO in the mountains.

It is Friday evening and this small woman is in the kitchen and starts talking to us. She is in the healing arts world and has been based out of Sedona. She has had many roles; leading different spiritual ceremonies, living off the land, etc. We didn't talk much that evening at all.

The next morning I woke up at 5:30AM (as I do) and the only person awake in the whole hostel is this woman, Sister Grace. She is sitting by the window watching the snow fall. I sat down in a seat across the room with a journal and she just looks at me... she asks me what is going on in my heart and soul and to come sit, and tell her.

I tell her I am pregnant, I say nothing else. She tells me to open my hands towards the sky and to just sit and breathe. We breathe together for a few moments (masks on FYI) and she begins to make all of these accurate and strange statements to me, ABOUT me. Nothing that she knew prior.

I wasn't speaking, I was simply crying. Tears were falling down my face. She then told me to open my eyes, she held out an imaginary bowl, and told me to pour my fears into her bowl.

"We didn't plan for this"
"How can I do my business and have a baby at the same time?"
"We are so young and had so many adventures planned."
I pour it all out.

She then laughs, dumps out my bowl of fears, and says something along the lines of...
Oh honey, you will adventure with your baby.
You will change lives even more with your yoga baby.
You will do even BIGGER business and lead more impactful retreats.
Do not EVER doubt who you are.
This is a gift to make you stronger, better, and bigger than you could imagine.

The more we talked, we cried.
The more we cried, the more joy and space I felt.
She asked about my partner and said she could feel he was a spiritual being who was READY for this and more ready than he knew.

She made so many accurate statements about my life and situation.

She danced. I watched, almost too shook by all of the emotions from the last few days to move.

In the middle of the living room of this hostel (with people now awake and watching her) she danced around in silence for my baby.

She told me things to eat, how to care for my body, how to move forward. She told me to consume more milk and calcium and vitamin D than normal... which then my blood labs came back around week 9 that I needed to supplement vitamin D lol of course.

She prayed over me and my baby and John.
She urged me to trust myself and my powers.
Damn, Sister Grace, I am so grateful for you.

Grateful life put me in alignment to run into you. A healer. A dancer. A soul that had no phone, no email, no car, no way to ever see you again.

To feel and hear things I didn't know I needed.
To walk in the mountains and feel the abundance of opportunity in front of me.
To feel supported by women that I barely knew who held me so softly.
To feel held by nature and mother earth.

This baby is a miracle with so much alignment.

The first retreat after I will give birth, my whole family signed up, in SEDONA where this tiny wild woman came from.

When I was planning and marketing the retreat I decided to leave a room open in the retreat center and to be honest I couldn't tell you why, but I decided to.

And now I know it's for extra support. It's to run my business AND be an incredible mother.

Let's freaking do it.